I weigh approximately 190 pounds. I gained close to seventy pounds while I was pregnant with Balian, and I'm finding it near impossible to lose it in a steady manner. I eat pretty well, lots of veggies and whole grains, lots of fruit and water. I'm slowly working on getting to the gym to work out. I try to be as active as I can be during the day (having a one year old makes that pretty easy).
All of that, and I still don't feel good enough. It's one thing to tell yourself that you're fat and need to lose weight. It's another thing to hear it from someone you love, no matter how lovingly they tell it to you.
So that's pretty much been my morning. Looking through Balian's birthday pictures, realizing that I'm larger than I should be, asking my husband about it, and hearing him say that he misses his skinny wife. My poor hubby. I love him to death, and I love how honest he is, but he needs to learn some tact... Granted, it didn't help that I was fishing for it...
I really am trying to lose weight. But it still hurts like hell when others point out how big I am (aww! He's expecting a brother or sister soon, isn't he!), especially when I don't feel that big at all. When I look in the mirror, I don't see my weight. I just see me. So why can't others see that as well? Why can't we all look past the physical side of another person and just see who they are for who they are?
Yes, I need to lose the weight. I am going to lose the weight (at least 40 or 50 pounds). But I'm still happy where I am. I just wish others were as happy with it.
All of that, and I still don't feel good enough. It's one thing to tell yourself that you're fat and need to lose weight. It's another thing to hear it from someone you love, no matter how lovingly they tell it to you.
So that's pretty much been my morning. Looking through Balian's birthday pictures, realizing that I'm larger than I should be, asking my husband about it, and hearing him say that he misses his skinny wife. My poor hubby. I love him to death, and I love how honest he is, but he needs to learn some tact... Granted, it didn't help that I was fishing for it...
I really am trying to lose weight. But it still hurts like hell when others point out how big I am (aww! He's expecting a brother or sister soon, isn't he!), especially when I don't feel that big at all. When I look in the mirror, I don't see my weight. I just see me. So why can't others see that as well? Why can't we all look past the physical side of another person and just see who they are for who they are?
Yes, I need to lose the weight. I am going to lose the weight (at least 40 or 50 pounds). But I'm still happy where I am. I just wish others were as happy with it.
